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My Love


My true love will never die.

Even if the world goes against you,

i will stand up for you, for my love for you has no end.

This is exactly what God lets each one of us,

he loves us everyday,

every minute,

every second

for what we are.

 

This people,

is what i call,

true love.

My love for you oh lord

is something beyond words can express,

and mind can imagine.

I know how much ever i love you,

it will never and can never be compared,

to what you have given me.

I cry to you oh lord,

to touch me with thy precious blood,

to heal me with thy holy  power,

cleanse me and fill me with grace,

to fight evil with good everyday.

When my life took a right turn.

I had to face opposition from family and dear ones.

Facing trials and worries became my twin.

and it so happened that,

times came when i failed

to keep up my commitment with you.

But you my lord,

never failed to extend your hands,

to support me each time i fell,

and guided me through the right channel,

for you wanted me to fullfill your purpose,

the purpose for which i was send to the  world.

Friends we should all be thankful

for this beautiful life,

and amazing people that we have been blessed with.

May it be good or bad,

we are priviledged to be humans.

We are all unique in the eyes of the world,

for our purpose here it not to fulfill our wishes

but the wishes of lord almighty,

who showed great mercy,

in bring us to the world

and blessing us with beautiful lives.

If  God is love and God is forgiving.

So why not we ourselves be,

or try to be the definition,

of love and forgiveness???

 


When i was lazying around one fine afternoon my brother happened to play this absolutely beautiful music which struck me really hard. I dont mean like the hard bad way but in a way that so took me deep into thoughts. We all think about something or the other always. and for me at that very minute my mind just traveled straight into my college days. I must say, music really has its own profound ways of getting us really nostalgic. When i had my colleges days flashing like a slide show through my mind i suddenly went back to the 1st day i stepped into college. All my fantasy’s about college was all based on the varrious movies that i had watch couple of times. New surroundings, new faces, teachers, more over a co-head classroom not to mention i did my schooling from girls only. When it comes to meeting people and socialising, it was always a piece of cake for me. But getting the rite kind of friends and getting into the kinda circle that i could blend in is something which doesnt happen over the night. Well to my shock as i stepped out of the college chapel i randomly redieved a hug and all i know is for a second i was totally stund because i heard a guy call out my name and the next minute i know is him giving me a hug. I know personally i was haapy that finally there is somebody i knew but then i didnt really want that hug cause i knew many people would be oggling at me with their eyes and that was enough for bbc hot news to flash around college like wild fire. Well i don’t really have to mention how “broad” minded the poeple out here in kerala are to actually accept two friends of the opposite sex giving a hug.

Then i walk into class and it didnt feel all that awkard cause i had a friend of mine with me. But again i had to keep myself away from him for a while so that i did’t give a bad impression to the class crowd rite away on the 1st day of college,and  thats something now i am least bothered about. Really if we start to care whatever people say about us, then what are our lives for, to be lived dictated by others or to be lived by the way we want it and the way we feel is rite?? okay am not getting there now. So then started my hunt to find the rite kind of people or the ones whom i could say connect with on every level. It wasnt really a easy job like it sounds because there were many people from different walks of life. In a month or 2 we had a small circle formed. Most of us in the gang were NRI’s so you know it was easy for us to connect and have our kind of fun. We all had emmense fun together thou there were a lot of bitching involved in between.

Things took a turn when couple of us got into relationship and things weren’t really the same as before. It sounds silly know but ya then it was one time when we whined over our guys if they say i love you, silly fights, late night chats and crying over silly but million break ups that came in between, and the end results was heart breaking. All of us got out of our relationship at one point one after the other. That was like a serious depression fever that had spread among us. The minute one steps out all fine and good the other one gets the fever. Lol this kept happening until we all reached a point were we knew we were the best ourself. It suprised me very much when i slowly started noticing how people around started changing and showing their true colours.The change was more noticed during my last two sems in college. Friends whom i thought were all that just turned out to be rite the opposite. So many occastions kept happening when i myself had to take a step back and think whether these people whom i called my true friends, did they really turn out to be like this???

But then not everybody turns out to be bad. We often tend to over look the goods ones we have and turn to the bad ones untill we all get a bad knock on our head and realise whom really cared and didnt. Well one such personality was roshni.:D Thou we were in the same gang we weren’t really close or lets say intimate. She was one among those very few girls that really caught my attention when we had an ice breaking section at our hostel, and man should i say from then on she has always been a regular visitor to my room, explains clearly how she got into my small circle of friends. Things changed this year for us. New year night was like a whole new chapter for both of us. lol it was the the the best new year of my life. The ultimate bash ever, and this is what got us really really close.

Roshni is like my bff now. I didnt know we would ever get this close. She is one person who has never ever told me to change and accepted me for what i am. Sometimes its takes us a while to really know who our true best friends are, and for me she is one of the best things that has happend in college. Times we had together these 4 months are like memories enough to teasure life long. If there is somebody whom i miss so much from college would be her and vipin an other best friend of mine, or i should say the male version 😛

Me and roshni had this very naturally occuring ritual of fighting every week. I my wildest memmory i don’t think we have been through atleast one week without fighting. Its true when people true love and care for each other fights happen but in our case it was something which kept happening on like a weekly bases. The best of the best times we shared together were in Goa, sluber times at my place, b’day suprise which was a really big suprise for her and all our crazzy late night talks and either of sleep taking while the other one is awake…lol 😀

I know it sounds lil chessy but this is exactly what i miss and what i thought when i heard that music. I miss her and yeah clearly it shows cause i ended up blogging about her….hehe lets just assume that some really beautiful people ( beautiful by heart ):P are worth blogging and not that she doesnt look good her eyes are killer…but then again i shouldnt let her fly too high as i know by reading this she must have already banged her head on the ceiling. 😀

lol k so here you go roshni i dedicate this post to you, not because your my best friend which definitely you are but for being my the best friend…and being there for me always and for being that one person to whom i would run to even if it was 3 a.m when you must be having one of those fantasying dreams about whoever 😛 jus kidding!!! But leme tell you are the best and be the best where were you go.

Sometimes writing is the one best way to convey what is really in your mind than talking it out. I started of with music and here i ended up blogging on my best friend. I bet like me there must be someone who must have touched your heart in some way, let me tell you guys, never ever lose them, how much of a bad or good reputation they have if they have been with you through all the thick and thin then they are just the rite people who no matter what will always stay at your side 🙂

Roshni here goes my teddy blog cyber hug for making all those worthless days of mine simply perfect xoxoxo 😀

So guys who are you gonna give a teddy cyber hug or lets say a real teddy hug too 😉


ollllaaaaaaaaaa 😀

and there am back after a very longggg break!!!!!

Its really been a crazzy 3 weeks with a lotta things haapening around….finally am done with college and now its time for me to take a long long break before i start cracking my head into something probably serious or atleast thats what i think i should do 😛 provided the fact that am a grown up ” in the eyesof others” and time for me to be all serious and stuff. Okay leave that behind…now when its comes to blogging there were actually a lotta things that i wanted to blog on and not to mention my extra socialising nature never really gave me the time to actually peacefully sit and blog….Damn!!! sometimes i really envy my close frends who blog daily…maybe i should make this one of my regular habits now 😛

so one afternoon while random googling and browsing i had this sudden intution of why not post on some of the struggles females face when it comes to love and relationship. We all look out for the one factor love and mostly we tend to look out for them in the wrong place. Many have experimented it with sexual relationships in the past. Well there are some myths that we believe and end up in such a messed up situation. So well am gonna share some myths that i feel the reson why most of ur end up in relationship.

  1. Flirting is okay.

We all think flirting is fine, but we never reaslise how much inappropriately the opposite person might be taking it. Everything starts for a jokes but it all ends up in serious trouble. Letting a boy or girl know that you are intrested in a more meaningful relationship with him is one thing, but inappropriately flirting, which can also be called “teasing” or “seduction” is another. Should you really stir up a person physically and mentally if you have intention of pursuing a relationship with him??? So just by being flirty and seductive won’t really get you anywere if you really want to grab some attention then keep your passion check, do yourself a favour and choose your words and actions wisely. 😀

2.  I need a boyfriend to feel as if am “somebody”. Having somebody will solve all my problems.

lol…Newsflash!!! if you really think you need someone to complete yourself like how you see in movies “you complete me”! then listen, no human can complete you. Yet young people try with all the power to find that special someone who will make them feel as if life is really worth living (as if living as a satisfied single person isn’t possible).

So for people who are still in the fairy tale land waiting for their prince charming to come and sweep them of their feets, well some advice for you. Do yourself a favour and get a life!Its time you face the reality and recognise who you are then do your best being that person. 🙂

3.My love will save him. I can change him.

Never make the mistake of dating a guy who needs some repair work before you could consider him marriage material. Many young women are drawn to this concept in molding the man to what they really want them to be. The truth is, its not really gonna happen. Instead you can pray for guys who have a lot of growing up and changing to do before you could consider them marriage material.

4.I feel so sexually tempted,I  must already be guilty, so why bother resisting.

Satan loves to use false guilt on  us,convincing us to cross the line between temptation and sin with thoughts like these:

  • You can’t deny that you want him. So why not go behind him.
  • You’ve already gone this far u might as well take the next step.
  • He already knows who you reaally are, so there#s no point pretending to be a goody two-shoes.

These are some gulit thoughts that we get which tempt us to sin. But don’t forget you are just tempted to sin, you havent commited a sin yet. Being sexually tempted is totally natural but the problem comes when we start to act over them. The best we can do is bounce back the temptations that pop into us and indulge into something creative.

Well i guess i have made my point clear 😀 so the best thing we can do is play a safe game. Love yourself and discover ways to improve yourself rather than trying to make somebody else better. Others life shouldnt really be a matter of much concern to you. If you go out there saving every soul that you get close to then who will save yourself 😀

 


hi hi hi….i knw its been a long tym again…u knw its pretty hard to really keep up to your daily routine specially when you have a lotta stuff happening one after the other. Well in my case its better not to ask. You really don’t know the pain of walking pass someone who knows you so well and acts like a perfect stranger,pretty strange isnt it. May it be your best friend ( atleast you thought she was) or your lover or anybody for that matter happens to bump on to you and when you know there has been a distance which has been formed unknowingly it hurts, somewhere within us even if we deny it. I have been in kinda the same plot for a couple of days now. Since its the end of my college days, these are the times when best friends and couples cling on to each other more….but for this college i see only couples cling and for best friends, they are more or less like strangers now. How ironic can this get. Seriously am little bit pissed of down here, seriously there is no problem that cant be solved, and i really don’t understand why people here fancy walking around with big faces expecting others to understand whats in their mind!!!!! ya ryt do wereally that? how better is it when you just sit and talk it out.

Seriously what do you get from holding up grudge a walking around when there will be a time where even if you want to you can not be with them. Life is short and so is time. Make yourself and others happy and stop drooling over problems and thinking it over and over and making it a big issue. I know all this sounds really emotional but when i look around thats all what i see…lot of emotional and provocating stuffs. Even if you want to come up with somethings really creative it just wouldnt happen here because there are a lot other powerfull things to pull you down.

Phew 😀 k i guess i feel a lot better now. Its like i so badly wanted to just share whats inside me,  which apparently is not possible in college cause many questions will pop up, and am seriously not in a mood to reveal who that person is.

I bet we have all had our fair share of misunderstanding and fights with are dear and loved ones, but how would it feel if you were the one to always approach them to solve it out and you see no movement from the other party? Won’t you be like WTF!!!!!!!!!!! yeah and thats how exactly i am right now!!!! seriously dont you wanna make an approach and tell me whats going on???its like these are days when we know there is so much to say and share but we prefer being alone. A lot of people choose being lonely and just be to themselfs. But you don’t realize how much it affects the others who were with you all through and when you suddenly avoid them. its not a funny joke to be avoided or even feel that way when you have people around. Seriously let me ask you one simple question, why do we call some people speacial?? easy cause we really like them. Do you go out to the street and shout at some random dude saying he’s speacial to you? no you dont. So if we say or make people feel speacial its cause we really want them. Will we ever ditch them cause of some mood swing that you’ve got or because of some issues that might be personal???

seriously hellloo knock knock m your best friends there’s nothing like that i don’t know about you that is keeping you away from sharing going on…..:s

Sometimes people just need to get it the hard way to feel what the others went through and if thats what they choose then there is absolutely nothing we can do about it, just let them get a taste of their own medicine. As simple as that 😉

Hmmmm I really hope this comes to an end atleast before leaving college. I really dont want things turning up bad bad…or lets just say its 13th friday…maybe somebody just jinxed me witha bad day 😛 anways  am winding up here…i will surely get back with something really good probably the next time i pop in to my blog.

adios 😀 keep rocking!!!!

 

LONELY AGAIN……


So lonely i feel,

lost in the wilderness of pain

captured in the cage of sorrow,

drowning in the ocean of misery.

The pain of being alone

can onlu be understood when alone.

I feel lost and lonely again.

I want to be loved.

I want to be cared.

I want to be the star in your eyes,

but seems likes nobody cares.

Why do i feel,

like the world around me is so numb.

So deaf to hear me cry.

so blind to see me sad.

Nor can i blame you,

nor can i blame him.

Alone have i come to this world.

Alone shall i live in my world.


One day while sitting through my usual boring lectures, i thought of writing down some random thoughts that was going through my mind.

One such thought that went across my mind was about humans and their emotions. We need a lot of love and attention. In other words we are called as emotional beings. What happens when we break up from a relationship? How do we cope up after a bad break up? Well, this little piece of work is something what i have discovered and i felt, i should share it here.

Everybody at some point in their life’s goes through an emotional phase where we feel left out and lonely, get into bad mood swings, put up a grumpy face and expect people to read us though. So much do we expect from people, how much do we give them? Man is selfish when it comes their own personal thing and when emotions are involved then its twice the attention they seek.  Being in a relationship is fun and joyful but what can also end up in painful break ups. When this happens people find it really hard to cope up.

                          Recently i happen to read this book “can love happen twice” by ravinder singh. This is the kind of book which most humans can relate to their life’s at some point. Its about the author himself, were he is narrating his love story and how love happend to him for the 2nd time. It was so touching that by the end i was left with tears. must watch

I would say this book is a must watch because it really touchs the the emotional areas and gives you like a wake up ring to understand others feelings better.

We all need attention, we all need an ear to listen and we all wished if we had somebody who we could just share all our problems and happiness, but in today’s world people are so busy and occupied, that relations and commitments are just 2 words with no meaning. Often we fail to realize who we really need and whom we don’t and this is what leads us to wrong relationships. We should always be careful when we choose people who we want to confide to. From my personal experience i can say we should never go behind and make too much effort to get close to somebody who doesn’t want us, provided we stay with people who make us feel special and wanted. But what happens when its with an opposite sex? When its a guy whom your close to and makes you feel special and wanted? We fall in love right. Yes, we fall in love . We start having some special affection towards him, even if he/she might be the worst/best or average looking person, as far as they touch the emotional side of you then nothing else matters. This is why we are called as emotional being. Haven’t we all thought why this happens or keeps happening? We fall in love love then at some point break up, then again fall in love and this episode keeps repeating. Do you know what happens in the end? Most cases people loss hope in love, other cases people suicide because they feel they are not worth living anymore and in other cases they gradually with the help of their friends and family cope up with the situation.

Here are few tips that i feel you could do to cope up with a bad break up.

  1. Its perfectly fine to be sad for a while      

See its perfectly alright to be sad for some time as you are entering into a new phase of life were you have to be alone without the person whom you deeply cared for.  You have all your rights to stay sad and a little emotional, it shows there may be some things that you miss which you loved so much in that person.

2.  Talk to your close friends.

Sharing whats in your mind itself will make you feel a lot better. Talk to a friend who knows you in and out. Somebody you know will make you feel better and supports you. Tell them how you feel and whatever is in your mind. Talking your heart out is one of the best medicines that which could be used to get over a bad relation.

3.  Try to hangout with  singles.

You must be having a lot of friends who are dating and single. If your out of a bad relation, try and avoid hanging out with friends who are dating.  You know they will be coupling around when you all hangout and that  will make you feel really miserable and emotional again.

4.  Get ride of things that might remind you of them.

Start of with letters and sms’s  that you must have saved or kept to keep referring each time you missed them. Throw away all the tiny gifts and card that you have. Just get ride of everything. The best way could be to just flush it off. 😀

5.  Do the things they restricted you from.

When you are in a relation you tend to listen to them more that yourself. Even the things you love to do the most will be restricted by them. Do all that and show them how better of you are without them.

6.   Be a little cold hearted.

It might sound harsh but its always better not to give your ex’s a soft corner when they are emotional and sad. Let them get a share of their own medicine. Let them learn to deal with the situation alone or with their friends like how you did.

7.  Spend time with family.

Family is something which no relation can be compared to. Spend time with your family and be with you parents whnever possible because times like this won’t happen again. When you can make the maximum of it.

8.  Learn something from the relationship.

                   Every relation teachs us something. There will be some reason for them to leave us or for us to make a decision to leave them. We all have our flaws and realizing them and correcting them could help us when we get into the next relationship. By learning we know were we went wrong and what would be done in order to not repeat them again.

  Now comes a piece of my advice, i have been through relationships and have heard a lot too from my friends. and all the emotional drama they go through  and this is what i tell them. Our lives are precious and nobody has the right to ruin it. We are all sensitive and emotional,  but one thing we should realize is, nobody is alone. You know why after a break up we feel left out and lonely its because we gave up everything for that one person whom we love the most and when we lose them its like a part of us is gone. This is why we should always be careful while choosing the person whom we decide to commit with. When you commit it doesn’t mean you ignore others who was there with you all this while. Its equal to ditching, and when this happens to you, remember there wont be anyone.

I guess this is all that i wanted to say, i hope it must have struck some cord in those who read it . Have a happy day ahead guys.

😀

 

MY LOVE……


One look said it all

one talk gave it all

one touch spoke it all

and all that took was those

3 magical words

I LOVE YOU

It was then i made you the guardian of my life,

and thats what made my life perfectly secure.

Everything seemed just perfect when i had you by my side,

so perfect that my heart lept and my eyes sparked

like a precious gem each time i saw you.

This was not just some random feeling that i had,

it was the connection we had and

the love we shared that made my life worth

living every second.

You were like the sunshine

which woke me up from a bad dream

to whisper the 3 magic word,

which would instantly make everything seem perfect.

Life seemed beautiful like never before

silly fights,silly jokes

all went like fancy pokes.

but………

untill the time came

when evil temptation took charge,

so much we gave into for each other

but all that could result was

in sorrow and just sorrow,

and only memories were left behind.

Even if death do us apart,

my love for you will never die

Its like the glowing star in the night sky,

to which i keep staring all night

hoping to see a shoting star,

so that i could make a wish,

a wish for the return of my lost love.

Alas! i think its time,

its time to move on in life

nothing last for ever,

in my case not even my true love.

Oh my love!

what have i done to thee to deserve this,

i feel empty and worthless without you,

for i wait infinitely the day

the day when you will take my hands again.

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