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Well i really couldn’t say am on a happy go lucky side, but am sure i will be fine.

Life teaches you a lot of lesson. Some lesson are taught by your dear ones, some that you might see around and some through really bad experiences. It depends on how every individual decide to take it. Recently i happend to attend a leadership training class and something which the resource person said really made me think was true. Every person in our life has either been a blessing or a lesson. Interesting right. Sometimes its so that we fail to realize what we do and what we say how much it really hurts others. Be it your best friend or relative. As humans we are all weak to emotions. What is the basic affection that every human craves for, its love. Love is something we all need and love is all that we want. Many of us in todays busy world wanna be loved and cared for, and for that be it any extend we wouldn’t mind going. Do we actually think how much of an impact we are leaving back in the minds of others??? Be it small or big, once an impact is created then nothing can change it, and if anything has to change god himself has to work some miracle.

While am on the processes of becoming a missionary for a year. There is this 1 month training that will be held in thailand. I guess i had it mentioned in the previous post.For now i have come down to dubai cause its from where i will be going for my mission. Well to my utmost suprise, everybody was waiting for me to just get back so i could tell them what really inspired me to take up this 1 year commitment. It was a momment of excitment and at the same time scary. After getting back from india, from an atmosphere of complete laziness to a world were am pre-occupied, i found it hard to choose what my priority was. This was the time when i got to spend some real quality time with a long lost friend of mine who happend to be my compaion for the training. It was so shocking that there were a lot of things that were pretty common in us. We made it a point that we meet up daily till the day we go off for our training. While i was listening to her story she had mentioned that she was in fact going through a real tough time and how beautifully the lord almighty was helping her cope up with her worries. I had heard from others friends of mine too that once we take a decision there will many situation were we would be judge and put into lot of trials. So on hearing this, i decided to strenghten my personal relationship with jesus. I took up a decision to go for mass daily, read the gospel and reflect on it. Well i didnt really know what was making me do all this because am someone who could fluctuate easily and decision change by minute, but somehow i had this sudden urge to call the lord and to strengthen my long lost faith in him.

It so happend that one fine day last week, an incident happend in my life. It was my mistake and if you ask me why i did it, i probably would have no answer to that cause somethings just happen, and we really wouldn’t have any explaination to give for it. This little incident took me to a level were one of my very dear and close friend broke her friendship with me. I should say i was lost and all i know is that my heart felt heavy, so heavy that i thought it might explode for a second, but that was it. Trust me that was it. I felt that heaviness just for sometime and i felt this sudden calmness in me. It was more like some force within kept me really calm and a voice inside kept saying forgive her and leave it to me.

Forgiveness and depending on god was the exact reflection i had that day and the previous days when i reflected upon the gospel i had read. Even though when i got dumped by my best friend somehow i didnt feel trashed or thrown away. I should say from that very minute i felt my heart being filled with the unconditional love of jesus. I know my mistake and as humans some mistakes that our friends make can’t be forgiven by humans in their thinking, but who are we to judge them??? If the lord himself could forgive those who persecuted him, then who gives us the right to punish others and decide if forgiveness should be given to them or not. It was then that i realised why i was put through intense personal prayer which made me get closer to God and feel the power of his mighty love and how much more unconditional and compassionate he is in giving it. When we all make mistakes do we realise how much we are hurting the lord who created us??? If he has send us to earth its cause he wants to fullfill his purpose through us and not make him the instrument to fullfill our purpose.

We are all Gods handmade and unique. Each of our thumb print are different and so our looks and talents. The greatess gift of God is to love and be loved, for the lord himself has told us ” love your neighbours just has i have loved you”. How many of us are actually doing this in real life.

Its true nobody is perfect but nothing stops us from attaining perfection. For perfection can only be attained through mistakes, and as humans its our birth right to make mistakes, provided we learn from them. I can boldly say that what i am now, is cause of all the mistakes that i have commited in my past intentionaly or accidently, and now its teaching me a big lesson. Sometimes we learn lessons the hard way, and for me many of my lesson in life were taught to me the hard way cause when am given an initial warning i take it for granted and its goes on till bang!!! i get this real hard and bad knock on my head, and thats how its for me.

But i must say, life is very beautiful with me now. Its like everyday i wake thanking the Lord for letting me see another beautiful day and asking his grace to be able to face the day with wisdom and courage. Sometimes losing someone makes us realise how much we have compremised on our priorities. I am not saying we should be self centred and not cater to others but we must know what our priorities are and set them in such a manner that later we don’t have to regret.

Its almost 4 am and such a blessed night. For days have i been wanting to say this prayer of Divine Mercy at 3 am and bloging was one way that helped me stay awake and at sharp 3 am i was able to say the prayer. I had never even thought of blogging today, infact i had this very dear friend of mine David who happend to read my blog and said i could do wonders and inspire people. I must thank him cause he was one reason that i felt i should blog.

See these are some small yet amazing ways that God gets you closer to him, how much of a sinner you maybe, every child, every youth, every adult is special to him. For me now through David i was able to blog and by blogging i was able to say the 3 o’clock Divine Mercy prayer which i have been longing to say. See how everything turned out to be a blessing!!! Like me i bet everyone of you must have had some way or some people through whom you were blessed. All you need to do is jus spend some time of the 24 hours that you have, for your creator and thank him for giving you another beautiful day to live.

Well i guess thats all for now, i should be back soon till then good night

GOD BLESS YOU ALL


When i was lazying around one fine afternoon my brother happened to play this absolutely beautiful music which struck me really hard. I dont mean like the hard bad way but in a way that so took me deep into thoughts. We all think about something or the other always. and for me at that very minute my mind just traveled straight into my college days. I must say, music really has its own profound ways of getting us really nostalgic. When i had my colleges days flashing like a slide show through my mind i suddenly went back to the 1st day i stepped into college. All my fantasy’s about college was all based on the varrious movies that i had watch couple of times. New surroundings, new faces, teachers, more over a co-head classroom not to mention i did my schooling from girls only. When it comes to meeting people and socialising, it was always a piece of cake for me. But getting the rite kind of friends and getting into the kinda circle that i could blend in is something which doesnt happen over the night. Well to my shock as i stepped out of the college chapel i randomly redieved a hug and all i know is for a second i was totally stund because i heard a guy call out my name and the next minute i know is him giving me a hug. I know personally i was haapy that finally there is somebody i knew but then i didnt really want that hug cause i knew many people would be oggling at me with their eyes and that was enough for bbc hot news to flash around college like wild fire. Well i don’t really have to mention how “broad” minded the poeple out here in kerala are to actually accept two friends of the opposite sex giving a hug.

Then i walk into class and it didnt feel all that awkard cause i had a friend of mine with me. But again i had to keep myself away from him for a while so that i did’t give a bad impression to the class crowd rite away on the 1st day of college,andΒ  thats something now i am least bothered about. Really if we start to care whatever people say about us, then what are our lives for, to be lived dictated by others or to be lived by the way we want it and the way we feel is rite?? okay am not getting there now. So then started my hunt to find the rite kind of people or the ones whom i could say connect with on every level. It wasnt really a easy job like it sounds because there were many people from different walks of life. In a month or 2 we had a small circle formed. Most of us in the gang were NRI’s so you know it was easy for us to connect and have our kind of fun. We all had emmense fun together thou there were a lot of bitching involved in between.

Things took a turn when couple of us got into relationship and things weren’t really the same as before. It sounds silly know but ya then it was one time when we whined over our guys if they say i love you, silly fights, late night chats and crying over silly but million break ups that came in between, and the end results was heart breaking. All of us got out of our relationship at one point one after the other. That was like a serious depression fever that had spread among us. The minute one steps out all fine and good the other one gets the fever. Lol this kept happening until we all reached a point were we knew we were the best ourself. It suprised me very much when i slowly started noticing how people around started changing and showing their true colours.The change was more noticed during my last two sems in college. Friends whom i thought were all that just turned out to be rite the opposite. So many occastions kept happening when i myself had to take a step back and think whether these people whom i called my true friends, did they really turn out to be like this???

But then not everybody turns out to be bad. We often tend to over look the goods ones we have and turn to the bad ones untill we all get a bad knock on our head and realise whom really cared and didnt. Well one such personality was roshni.:D Thou we were in the same gang we weren’t really close or lets say intimate. She was one among those very few girls that really caught my attention when we had an ice breaking section at our hostel, and man should i say from then on she has always been a regular visitor to my room, explains clearly how she got into my small circle of friends. Things changed this year for us. New year night was like a whole new chapter for both of us. lol it was the the the best new year of my life. The ultimate bash ever, and this is what got us really really close.

Roshni is like my bff now. I didnt know we would ever get this close. She is one person who has never ever told me to change and accepted me for what i am. Sometimes its takes us a while to really know who our true best friends are, and for me she is one of the best things that has happend in college. Times we had together these 4 months are like memories enough to teasure life long. If there is somebody whom i miss so much from college would be her and vipin an other best friend of mine, or i should say the male version πŸ˜›

Me and roshni had this very naturally occuring ritual of fighting every week. I my wildest memmory i don’t think we have been through atleast one week without fighting. Its true when people true love and care for each other fights happen but in our case it was something which kept happening on like a weekly bases. The best of the best times we shared together were in Goa, sluber times at my place, b’day suprise which was a really big suprise for her and all our crazzy late night talks and either of sleep taking while the other one is awake…lol πŸ˜€

I know it sounds lil chessy but this is exactly what i miss and what i thought when i heard that music. I miss her and yeah clearly it shows cause i ended up blogging about her….hehe lets just assume that some really beautiful people ( beautiful by heart ):P are worth blogging and not that she doesnt look good her eyes are killer…but then again i shouldnt let her fly too high as i know by reading this she must have already banged her head on the ceiling. πŸ˜€

lol k so here you go roshni i dedicate this post to you, not because your my best friend which definitely you are but for being my the best friend…and being there for me always and for being that one person to whom i would run to even if it was 3 a.m when you must be having one of those fantasying dreams about whoever πŸ˜› jus kidding!!! But leme tell you are the best and be the best where were you go.

Sometimes writing is the one best way to convey what is really in your mind than talking it out. I started of with music and here i ended up blogging on my best friend. I bet like me there must be someone who must have touched your heart in some way, let me tell you guys, never ever lose them, how much of a bad or good reputation they have if they have been with you through all the thick and thin then they are just the rite people who no matter what will always stay at your side πŸ™‚

Roshni here goes my teddy blog cyber hug for making all those worthless days of mine simply perfect xoxoxo πŸ˜€

So guys who are you gonna give a teddy cyber hug or lets say a real teddy hug too πŸ˜‰


hi hi hi….i knw its been a long tym again…u knw its pretty hard to really keep up to your daily routine specially when you have a lotta stuff happening one after the other. Well in my case its better not to ask. You really don’t know the pain of walking pass someone who knows you so well and acts like a perfect stranger,pretty strange isnt it. May it be your best friend ( atleast you thought she was) or your lover or anybody for that matter happens to bump on to you and when you know there has been a distance which has been formed unknowingly it hurts, somewhere within us even if we deny it. I have been in kinda the same plot for a couple of days now. Since its the end of my college days, these are the times when best friends and couples cling on to each other more….but for this college i see only couples cling and for best friends, they are more or less like strangers now. How ironic can this get. Seriously am little bit pissed of down here, seriously there is no problem that cant be solved, and i really don’t understand why people here fancy walking around with big faces expecting others to understand whats in their mind!!!!! ya ryt do wereally that? how better is it when you just sit and talk it out.

Seriously what do you get from holding up grudge a walking around when there will be a time where even if you want to you can not be with them. Life is short and so is time. Make yourself and others happy and stop drooling over problems and thinking it over and over and making it a big issue. I know all this sounds really emotional but when i look around thats all what i see…lot of emotional and provocating stuffs. Even if you want to come up with somethings really creative it just wouldnt happen here because there are a lot other powerfull things to pull you down.

Phew πŸ˜€ k i guess i feel a lot better now. Its like i so badly wanted to just share whats inside me,Β  which apparently is not possible in college cause many questions will pop up, and am seriously not in a mood to reveal who that person is.

I bet we have all had our fair share of misunderstanding and fights with are dear and loved ones, but how would it feel if you were the one to always approach them to solve it out and you see no movement from the other party? Won’t you be like WTF!!!!!!!!!!! yeah and thats how exactly i am right now!!!! seriously dont you wanna make an approach and tell me whats going on???its like these are days when we know there is so much to say and share but we prefer being alone. A lot of people choose being lonely and just be to themselfs. But you don’t realize how much it affects the others who were with you all through and when you suddenly avoid them. its not a funny joke to be avoided or even feel that way when you have people around. Seriously let me ask you one simple question, why do we call some people speacial?? easy cause we really like them. Do you go out to the street and shout at some random dude saying he’s speacial to you? no you dont. So if we say or make people feel speacial its cause we really want them. Will we ever ditch them cause of some mood swing that you’ve got or because of some issues that might be personal???

seriously hellloo knock knock m your best friends there’s nothing like that i don’t know about you that is keeping you away from sharing going on…..:s

Sometimes people just need to get it the hard way to feel what the others went through and if thats what they choose then there is absolutely nothing we can do about it, just let them get a taste of their own medicine. As simple as that πŸ˜‰

Hmmmm I really hope this comes to an end atleast before leaving college. I really dont want things turning up bad bad…or lets just say its 13th friday…maybe somebody just jinxed me witha bad day πŸ˜› anwaysΒ  am winding up here…i will surely get back with something really good probably the next time i pop in to my blog.

adios πŸ˜€ keep rocking!!!!

 

TRUE FRIEND


What could i probably say,

to my true friend who knows it all,

u know when am sad and when my mood changes,

who catchs me red handed each time

i sway away in my thoughts

by saying”hey which world are you in”

what more can i say…they make my world.

always togethere

A true friend is someone, no matter

what all people say or do,

they will always be by your side.

Accept you for what you are and never

want you to change for them.

A true friends sees the tears in your eyes

while the others see the fake smile

that you put on your face.

For a sranger you maybe some random by stander,

for a friend a bubbly cheerful and out going person,

but a true friend knows how truely insane you can get ;P

This is why i could deticate,

this little piece of my creation

to all my true friends who know me

so well that nothing stops them from loving

the true,crazy, insane person in me.

I bet like me there will be many who must have felt and experienced the same feeling when it comes to their friends too.

Never be to late to tell or show them how much they mean to you because like one of my favourite saying goes,

nothing last forever,

so live it u, drink it down

avoid all the bullshit.

Take chance and never regrets,

because at one point you will realise

everything you did was exactly

what you wanted.

stay with each other in whatever shit we get into

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