Category: GODS LOVE


My Days


Only lord if i knew,

why was all this happening to me.

could i be a little prepared,

for all the turmoil that came my way.

My days have become so weary.

Even though i put up a smile,

you know deep inside i cry,

for the reason which i don’t understand,

for all i know is that am hurt.

Hurt for what!! i ask myself,

for having trusted someone so much

to be backstabbed and left lonely.

If alone did i know oh lord,

the ocean of your love open to me,

even in the times of my despair

i would’ve come to thee.

With a grateful heart,

i thank God for the cross i carry.

for every night there’s a dawn,

so shall be my days when i meet the lord.

I wait for that day,

preparing myself to be awed.

You know how much i love thee,

for my heart is overwhelmed.


So finally the day has come were in i just have couple of hours at home before i leave to the airport. You know the feeling of stepping out from the comfort zone to an entire new country, an entire new place, new culture, new people and to top it all new language. I always had a big fantasy towards learning a new language and thai was least of my options. But then here i am going to thailand.

The thrill is killer i must say. I remember last week this time i was super scared and nervous. I was so tensed that i remember ending up in tears imagining how things would turn out to be, but as i have reached the day, like its THE day now were am leaving and God i must say the feeling is superb. Its like couple of us who havent really met face 2 face already has a good rapo…thanks to facebook 😀 we formed this group called international fultimers 2012 and a couple of us are already members of it. Its like a we already started a small fellowship even before we actually met. Awesome ryt!!!! Never did i ever imagine this would happeen, now it could really feel like home once we all get together. We are a group of 20 members from different part of the world who has come togethere for a common purpose. To know and love the lord and to give him in the best way possible.

If you ask me how i am rite now…..frankly speaking am really looking forward for a change. A change in every possible way. Sometimes its so that memories has its sweet ways of haunting us. Specially the bad ones. Its more like our days are challenged by them…..how much ever we try to over come them at some point they just shoot back and when they do it just shatters us. I must say am in such a kind of state now….lot of memories keep sliding through my mind and finally gets on my nerves. Its true when you really take up a commitment you face trials in many ways and i guess for me its through memories.

A lot of my issues surrounds in and around college. But i really don’t regret anything cause if am what i am rite now is because of the small small roles that my friends and people around me played. Let it be good or bad they were all a blessing or a lesson to me some way.If you ask me what i gained from all this is never trust anybody completely….we are all humans and humans are weak. Not all have the xtra ordinary will power to keep all your secrets and if at all you feel equally connected to a person its always better to keep them at a good distance. It so happens that at some point you guys get close and share everything and then one fine day that person is no longer with you so don’t you think memories of that person with whom you shared the darkest side of you, will haunt you and disturbe your peace. Then why take chance. Its always better to trust in yourself and in the lord who is watching your steps everyday. In him can you put your trust completely and its him who can fill that little empty space in your heart that craves for love.

So i guess its time for me to close up for now….i assure you i will be back soon and that will be from THAILAND 😀 with a lot more exciting news and new experinces to share…so till then

adios 😀

GOD BLESS

My Love


My true love will never die.

Even if the world goes against you,

i will stand up for you, for my love for you has no end.

This is exactly what God lets each one of us,

he loves us everyday,

every minute,

every second

for what we are.

 

This people,

is what i call,

true love.

My love for you oh lord

is something beyond words can express,

and mind can imagine.

I know how much ever i love you,

it will never and can never be compared,

to what you have given me.

I cry to you oh lord,

to touch me with thy precious blood,

to heal me with thy holy  power,

cleanse me and fill me with grace,

to fight evil with good everyday.

When my life took a right turn.

I had to face opposition from family and dear ones.

Facing trials and worries became my twin.

and it so happened that,

times came when i failed

to keep up my commitment with you.

But you my lord,

never failed to extend your hands,

to support me each time i fell,

and guided me through the right channel,

for you wanted me to fullfill your purpose,

the purpose for which i was send to the  world.

Friends we should all be thankful

for this beautiful life,

and amazing people that we have been blessed with.

May it be good or bad,

we are priviledged to be humans.

We are all unique in the eyes of the world,

for our purpose here it not to fulfill our wishes

but the wishes of lord almighty,

who showed great mercy,

in bring us to the world

and blessing us with beautiful lives.

If  God is love and God is forgiving.

So why not we ourselves be,

or try to be the definition,

of love and forgiveness???

 


Well i really couldn’t say am on a happy go lucky side, but am sure i will be fine.

Life teaches you a lot of lesson. Some lesson are taught by your dear ones, some that you might see around and some through really bad experiences. It depends on how every individual decide to take it. Recently i happend to attend a leadership training class and something which the resource person said really made me think was true. Every person in our life has either been a blessing or a lesson. Interesting right. Sometimes its so that we fail to realize what we do and what we say how much it really hurts others. Be it your best friend or relative. As humans we are all weak to emotions. What is the basic affection that every human craves for, its love. Love is something we all need and love is all that we want. Many of us in todays busy world wanna be loved and cared for, and for that be it any extend we wouldn’t mind going. Do we actually think how much of an impact we are leaving back in the minds of others??? Be it small or big, once an impact is created then nothing can change it, and if anything has to change god himself has to work some miracle.

While am on the processes of becoming a missionary for a year. There is this 1 month training that will be held in thailand. I guess i had it mentioned in the previous post.For now i have come down to dubai cause its from where i will be going for my mission. Well to my utmost suprise, everybody was waiting for me to just get back so i could tell them what really inspired me to take up this 1 year commitment. It was a momment of excitment and at the same time scary. After getting back from india, from an atmosphere of complete laziness to a world were am pre-occupied, i found it hard to choose what my priority was. This was the time when i got to spend some real quality time with a long lost friend of mine who happend to be my compaion for the training. It was so shocking that there were a lot of things that were pretty common in us. We made it a point that we meet up daily till the day we go off for our training. While i was listening to her story she had mentioned that she was in fact going through a real tough time and how beautifully the lord almighty was helping her cope up with her worries. I had heard from others friends of mine too that once we take a decision there will many situation were we would be judge and put into lot of trials. So on hearing this, i decided to strenghten my personal relationship with jesus. I took up a decision to go for mass daily, read the gospel and reflect on it. Well i didnt really know what was making me do all this because am someone who could fluctuate easily and decision change by minute, but somehow i had this sudden urge to call the lord and to strengthen my long lost faith in him.

It so happend that one fine day last week, an incident happend in my life. It was my mistake and if you ask me why i did it, i probably would have no answer to that cause somethings just happen, and we really wouldn’t have any explaination to give for it. This little incident took me to a level were one of my very dear and close friend broke her friendship with me. I should say i was lost and all i know is that my heart felt heavy, so heavy that i thought it might explode for a second, but that was it. Trust me that was it. I felt that heaviness just for sometime and i felt this sudden calmness in me. It was more like some force within kept me really calm and a voice inside kept saying forgive her and leave it to me.

Forgiveness and depending on god was the exact reflection i had that day and the previous days when i reflected upon the gospel i had read. Even though when i got dumped by my best friend somehow i didnt feel trashed or thrown away. I should say from that very minute i felt my heart being filled with the unconditional love of jesus. I know my mistake and as humans some mistakes that our friends make can’t be forgiven by humans in their thinking, but who are we to judge them??? If the lord himself could forgive those who persecuted him, then who gives us the right to punish others and decide if forgiveness should be given to them or not. It was then that i realised why i was put through intense personal prayer which made me get closer to God and feel the power of his mighty love and how much more unconditional and compassionate he is in giving it. When we all make mistakes do we realise how much we are hurting the lord who created us??? If he has send us to earth its cause he wants to fullfill his purpose through us and not make him the instrument to fullfill our purpose.

We are all Gods handmade and unique. Each of our thumb print are different and so our looks and talents. The greatess gift of God is to love and be loved, for the lord himself has told us ” love your neighbours just has i have loved you”. How many of us are actually doing this in real life.

Its true nobody is perfect but nothing stops us from attaining perfection. For perfection can only be attained through mistakes, and as humans its our birth right to make mistakes, provided we learn from them. I can boldly say that what i am now, is cause of all the mistakes that i have commited in my past intentionaly or accidently, and now its teaching me a big lesson. Sometimes we learn lessons the hard way, and for me many of my lesson in life were taught to me the hard way cause when am given an initial warning i take it for granted and its goes on till bang!!! i get this real hard and bad knock on my head, and thats how its for me.

But i must say, life is very beautiful with me now. Its like everyday i wake thanking the Lord for letting me see another beautiful day and asking his grace to be able to face the day with wisdom and courage. Sometimes losing someone makes us realise how much we have compremised on our priorities. I am not saying we should be self centred and not cater to others but we must know what our priorities are and set them in such a manner that later we don’t have to regret.

Its almost 4 am and such a blessed night. For days have i been wanting to say this prayer of Divine Mercy at 3 am and bloging was one way that helped me stay awake and at sharp 3 am i was able to say the prayer. I had never even thought of blogging today, infact i had this very dear friend of mine David who happend to read my blog and said i could do wonders and inspire people. I must thank him cause he was one reason that i felt i should blog.

See these are some small yet amazing ways that God gets you closer to him, how much of a sinner you maybe, every child, every youth, every adult is special to him. For me now through David i was able to blog and by blogging i was able to say the 3 o’clock Divine Mercy prayer which i have been longing to say. See how everything turned out to be a blessing!!! Like me i bet everyone of you must have had some way or some people through whom you were blessed. All you need to do is jus spend some time of the 24 hours that you have, for your creator and thank him for giving you another beautiful day to live.

Well i guess thats all for now, i should be back soon till then good night

GOD BLESS YOU ALL

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